Bible Discussion Thread

Hi I thought I was a good christian, I am a fool for ever thinking so, I have mad so many mistakes in my years, I am 55 years old, and in my 30's I was asked to stay and learn the words, and rushed back to tell people about it, that did not go as well as I thought, I broke my radio and asked the lord to wake me, wow did he wake me, he sent a whole flock of birds to wake me, and I cussed them, i walk down the hall way and looked down on a new mustang I just got, and it was covered in white, wow was I upset, then as I was ready to leave for work, I went out to the car and found it was peddles off a cherry tree, from behind the garage, and I thanked the lord, but as the years pressed on, my life and mind got lost and wicked thought hit my mind and I did not see it that way,(( thus not reading the bible )), now I was told by the Holy spirit to lean the word, I was told by my dad to read, and way down the line, here and now I am reading the bible, and man was I ever so wrong in my life, in almost every way, and now I am on the right path, for three or four days now I have been pressed by the lord God feel such pain in my chest, and rising out of me feel so guilty, feeling like I will pop, for many years I thought I was good, and now I see so clearly I've been so wrong, over so many things, I beg God for forgiveness all the time, and want to feel the holy spirit like I use to in my 30's, it has been a very long time, and I beg all to pray with me, and for me, and I will never stray an other day as well, I owe a lawn care business, and it is no longer important to me, praying is all I do, it will never leave me, even when I was so wrong for years I would wake and thank the lord God, through the day I would thank the lord God, and pray, with out reading the bible, I made so many mistakes and so so very wrong, I can never say it enough, So now I pray in the true light of Jesus and can not stop AHMEN, so once again pray with me and for me, I need it, let God be the light.