Bible Discussion Thread

Pray for me! During Covid I have had time to reflect back on my life and decisions I have made. As I reflect I missed out on the life god had for me. He gave me an amazing mom, who raised me and my siblings as a single parent along with my grandmother. She was an amazing woman. She soft spoken, religious, kind, unselfish nurturing and had a special place in her heart for children, she always found a way to help anyone who needed it. My grandmother was exactly the same. My husband parents raised him and his siblings with a strong Christian background. We were married, attending church and classes regularly. We were very young and early in our marriagei, God blessed us with a home, a car, children, supportive family and friends. We took things for granted and we let life take control. We lost focus of God. Our foundation became weak. Communication became almost impossible. We stop going to church less and less. God was not pleased and all within one year I lost my job, home and my marriage, pretty much life as I knew it. We were married over 25 years, I was devastated. Even though this was many years ago, I still feel like it was yesterday. I took my children back to church. I went back to school received a degree got another job working with children. God gave me a 2nd chance. I made decisions based on what other people needed from me. I didn't listen to God's voice. I didn't follow God's path for my life. Unintentionally I was controlling my life, trying to make sure I would be prepared for anything that might happen this time. No surprises. I realize I can't prepare myself for life god is always in control. Today I sit afraid to make decisions, not wanting to make the wrong decision, somewhat doubled minded. I am truly afraid of life, especially with what's happening now. I wonder if this is my punishment. I struggle with my faults. It' miserable to feel this way. I attend virtual church & classes, read the Bible and pray for understanding.

When i had Covid 19 i thought i would die. Being 60 with asthma i was afraid. But it turned to be a Blessing. Because during the time i was sick i got closer to God than i ever had been. He was by my side as i prayed and read my Bible.

I could feel his presence so sweet as i prayed. the Reassurance i had that if i died i would be with him then was comfort like i had never known.

My thought and prayer for you is to Trust in him, Use this time to Pray and talk to him as a Friend, The closeness you will feel is more than worth the sickness you are going through!