Bible Discussion Thread

I need prayer, I feel like there is no hope for me sometimes because I've been in repenting and giving into sin over and over again. I think I have a reprobate mind or I am in reprobate and I'm confused if there still hope for me or not. I believe there is still hope for people that are reprobates or have harden hearts but I don't know how to get out of that state. I wanna get baptized in the name of the Lord Jesus only not in titles because father son holyspirit was made by the roman catholic church in the 2nd century and was never in the Bible. But first I need to Believe, then repent in the name of the Lord Jesus for my sins, and THEN get baptized in the name of the Lord Jesus. Because if you don't repent first and then get baptized your just getting wet with water. So I'm just really struggling if I'm saved or not meaning it when I repent. And I'm just lost and confused. Found a church that a maybe could fellowship and that could baptize me in the name of the Lord Jesus. Keep in mind I don't play church. But anyway I don't think I'm saved to then get baptized yet. Like I said I'm lost. I don't want to be a reprobate or if I'm already one I don't want to be one. There are many distractions that are distracting me from doing Gods will. I need prayer. I'm gonna work out my own salvation with fear and trembling. I didn't have any other request than this.