Bible Discussion Thread

About 2 1/2 months ago I found out my spouse was cheating on me, and had been according to the text messages from the mistress, for 2 1/2 years. I am a Christian and so is my spouse...one of the Deacons of the church and well liked and on various committees @ church. I did confront my spouse only to leave him and go to a hotel for 3 days, knowing that I could not stay there forever. I have been struggling since then, in and out of feeling overwhelmed...I want my spouse near me and if not, where is he...I feel the need to check his cellphone for any calls, text messages, etc... and feel depressed quite often. I have been told I need counseling, for thoughts have shifted to ending my life... but there remains a secretcy about it all. I cry and feel like I need to be getting more from him and did tell him if he does not get counseling, then I don't know about us...he seems to say he can not and will not allow this hiccup to ruin us or him. I do love him and do want to trust again.

My immediate need is prayer because this is not my first rodeo, but I felt safe and thought we were past all that...but my spirit wants a reconciliation but my mind wants peace, stability and to regain happiness...claiming it in the Name of Jesus.