I received Jesus as my personal savior as a young boy of 12 years old. But I've back slid and now I'm not sure if I am going to be with Him in heaven. I still believe that He's the Son of God and that he died for my sins and arose from the grave and is with God in heaven and will someday return and take all that's name that is in the book of life back with him to heaven.
Thank you David for sharing this from your heart. Many of us have slipped away from the Lord at some time & entertained sin, sometimes gross sin, in our lives. We have learned the Truth from the Bible as young ones but Satan has enticed us to serve our flesh, our lusts, which he made more appealing than being devoted to the Lord Who loves us & bought us. I was one of those.
David, the fact that you're here expressing anxiousness at this particular time, indicates that God, the Holy Spirit, is working in your heart. Because that's how it begins - we're not like a light switch that can be turned on or off to bring an instant result. Satan has done a lot of damage in our lives & our minds, & when the Lord restarts His Work in us, He takes us through many processes, sometimes challenges & discomfort, to bring us to a certain point. I think, this is where you're at: you know perfectly well what the Gospel means & its implications; you know the Love & Power of God through His Son for you, both then & now; & you know that all is certainly not well with your soul as you stand shaking before Him, the One with Whom you will have to give an account to.
This process probably began sometime ago, unbeknowns to you. But you're sensing it now as fear, perplexity & turmoil are filling your heart & mind. Unless you sense something has gone horribly wrong with your life, that sin has clearly separated you from God, & you're now brought to a point where something needs to be done about it, the Spirit will not take you further. I see that He is making the Gospel penetrate you once again - you've tried the other life, now you're tired & convicted of it.
You know David, you CAN be sure of being saved, of having eternal life, of pleasing God. All it takes is to humble yourself completely before Him on your knees, admit your life of sin, confess it all before Him, receive His Salvation, & praise Him for His Gift. The Spirit will drive you to deep sorrow & turn it to joy ( 1 John 1:9).
Yes David i was where you are not too long ago! I know I don't deserve Gods mercy or grace. It's a gift. 100%.
I thought I had surely crossed over Gods mercy line! The enemy had almost convinced me that God wanted nothing more to do with me. But he's a liar. I even agreed with the devil. Because I KNEW that I was living a sinful lifestyle. Lukewarm.
God begin to convict me one day and show me scripture like "if you love me you'll keep my Commandments." I kept saying I loved him but I wasn't keeping any of his commandments!
Let God be true and every man a liar& without holiness no man shall see God. Many scriptures The Holy Spirit began to bring to mind and open up my understanding. I knew I had to get myself right with God I knew I was living in sin and I know that even though God is loving & merciful He was not going to wink at my willful sin. I was without excuse. The devil hides the fact that we're still gonna reap what we sow even though God forgives us. The 10 Commandments began to convict me. God allowed me to see myself in the mirror of his word. I was breaking all of the Commandments And calling myself a Christian all the while. I began to desire to get free from things I knew were not right. For example, cigarettes. I knew I couldn't witness and talk to people about God with a cigarette hanging out of my mouth. Some will disagree but I was very convicted about it. I Had to have deliverance and the Lord did it. I laid down what I could and He did the rest.
Turn again to Him with your WHoLE heart. Don't let anybody deceive you and tell you that you can live like the world and still be right with God. Friendship with the world is enmity with God.
I'm working out my own salvation with fear and trembling. I didn't give up on Jesus, to whom would I go? God truly won't leave us or for sake us I see that now.
David, the fact that you're here expressing anxiousness at this particular time, indicates that God, the Holy Spirit, is working in your heart. Because that's how it begins - we're not like a light switch that can be turned on or off to bring an instant result. Satan has done a lot of damage in our lives & our minds, & when the Lord restarts His Work in us, He takes us through many processes, sometimes challenges & discomfort, to bring us to a certain point. I think, this is where you're at: you know perfectly well what the Gospel means & its implications; you know the Love & Power of God through His Son for you, both then & now; & you know that all is certainly not well with your soul as you stand shaking before Him, the One with Whom you will have to give an account to.
This process probably began sometime ago, unbeknowns to you. But you're sensing it now as fear, perplexity & turmoil are filling your heart & mind. Unless you sense something has gone horribly wrong with your life, that sin has clearly separated you from God, & you're now brought to a point where something needs to be done about it, the Spirit will not take you further. I see that He is making the Gospel penetrate you once again - you've tried the other life, now you're tired & convicted of it.
You know David, you CAN be sure of being saved, of having eternal life, of pleasing God. All it takes is to humble yourself completely before Him on your knees, admit your life of sin, confess it all before Him, receive His Salvation, & praise Him for His Gift. The Spirit will drive you to deep sorrow & turn it to joy ( 1 John 1:9).
I thought I had surely crossed over Gods mercy line! The enemy had almost convinced me that God wanted nothing more to do with me. But he's a liar. I even agreed with the devil. Because I KNEW that I was living a sinful lifestyle. Lukewarm.
God begin to convict me one day and show me scripture like "if you love me you'll keep my Commandments." I kept saying I loved him but I wasn't keeping any of his commandments!
Let God be true and every man a liar& without holiness no man shall see God. Many scriptures The Holy Spirit began to bring to mind and open up my understanding. I knew I had to get myself right with God I knew I was living in sin and I know that even though God is loving & merciful He was not going to wink at my willful sin. I was without excuse. The devil hides the fact that we're still gonna reap what we sow even though God forgives us. The 10 Commandments began to convict me. God allowed me to see myself in the mirror of his word. I was breaking all of the Commandments And calling myself a Christian all the while. I began to desire to get free from things I knew were not right. For example, cigarettes. I knew I couldn't witness and talk to people about God with a cigarette hanging out of my mouth. Some will disagree but I was very convicted about it. I Had to have deliverance and the Lord did it. I laid down what I could and He did the rest.
Turn again to Him with your WHoLE heart. Don't let anybody deceive you and tell you that you can live like the world and still be right with God. Friendship with the world is enmity with God.
I'm working out my own salvation with fear and trembling. I didn't give up on Jesus, to whom would I go? God truly won't leave us or for sake us I see that now.
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