Bible Discussion Thread

Hi, My name is Meron and this is how I came to Christ.

I was born and raised in a "Christian" and religious home. But I nor my family acknowledged God that much. My past held a lot of pain. At a very young age, my mind was filled with dirty, sexual things. I was thinking and doing things that I wasn't supposed to, thinking it was ok because no one taught me otherwise. At the age of 10, I witnessed one of my aunts manifesting a demon and was screaming and crying. I couldn't understand her behavior and I felt scared. For the next few months, I had nightmares and the scene was playing over and over in my head and I couldn't stop thinking about my aunt. I loved her very much and I didn't understand what had happened.

At the age of 12, because of all the pain and loneliness I felt, I turned to porn for support. I thought that it might help me get rid of that longing desire I had to be loved and understood. I thought it might help distract me from the emptiness I felt. But the truth is, it made my pain grow day by day and I felt even more lonely. At that point, I felt that I had gone too far from God and that God hated me for what I had done. I would cry myself to sleep every night, with no one to talk to.

Then, one night, after I had cried myself to sleep, I heard the voice of God. I don't remember seeing anything in that dream but I do remember hearing these words, "I forgive you, my child." The next morning, I felt so refreshed and so much better. I knew it was the voice of God and knew that I couldn't have just "imagined" those words. The next few months were hard because I was trying to get rid of my addictive nature for porn. But it was better because then I knew that God loved me and didn't hate me. I think he spoke to me a couple of times during that time period but I just couldn't hear him because I was "too far away." So then I brought a Bible. I started to read and got closer to God. Now, 2 years later, at the age of 14, I have committed my life to God:)