Bible Discussion Thread

I gave my life to Jesus in 1982, 5 days before my 24th birthday. That was 41 years ago this June. This is my first time asking for prayer on a public forum. I suffer from major depression since I was a child; growing up in a horrible dysfunctional family. My major prayer has been for healing for myself & 3 sisters & now for our children. We are all "touched" w/various forms of mental illness. I have now totally isolated myself as a way to keep people from emotionally abusing me - even Christians. My daughter is not in my life - her choice. I have had counseling & take a large dose of anti-depressant & my wonderful psychiatrist died. I am on SS & it is a small amount. More counseling is too expensive let alone searching for someone who can truly help! I am in a breakdown now & I need Jesus' presence and/or HS in my life. Many times I have heard Christians speak of feeling His and/or HS all around them. I have begged Him to have that experience many times; I don't know what it means. I You-tube for fellowship & keeping up w/teachings. I long to feel HIS love not just KNOW it in my brain. Often thought of suicide so I could die to feel HIS love since many who died experienced it, & spoke of it when they came back from death. I won't do that! I'm close to the age my parents died & I know I can "white knuckle" this life till then or the rapture; I long for either! EVERDAY!!!

PRAYER FOR:

My precious daughter Shannon's salvation (homosexual)

I'm an Empath - Sadness is my constant companion. It's a GIFT (& sometimes feels like a curse)!

People who really know me Don't like me or want to be around me..... Since childhood; even my sisters. Hence, isolation! Safety in aloneness! Thank you for going to Jesus on my behalf. Truly appreciate it!!