Bible Discussion Thread

if i kill myslef will god frown upon me and will i loose my salvation. Ive prayed to for god to take me many times. although I have tried to and wanted to so bad I cant muster the courage, I wanted god to take me from this world and I know god wont do it but I so bad want to. I dont want to go through this life. Everyone I come into contact with wishes me to and hurts me so much that I wish my life to be taken. I dont want to do it myslef so I pray for god to take me, but he wont. I wish he would so much, on earth all I do is hurt those who say they love me but they are not christian or I dont believe they are. My life feels as if im targeted and this is what they want from me, for me to kill myslef. I feel so hopeless and alone. I know I should turn to god, I'm afraid though.

I simply want him to take me. I dont want to do it myslef and I dont want to suffer anymore.

hey there, i have had the same issues with YAH, still here. my issues started with the courts in annarbor (aka sodom) and the homos and fem bias. there was many lies told about me by a "christian" to these people (people is questionable) and i had many blows to my character and livelyhood. i am better now, at peace with YAH and i will not have to answer to the false witness by this "christian" woman, she has a lot to answer for! anyway put the idea of leaving this earth out of your mind, it is not worth the risk of losing eternal life with YAH. my real turn of events started in kind of a simple way, i planted an apple seed and it is now growing strong (about 2 years ago). seeing the wonder and miracles of this earth, HIS handy work i do not want to miss meeting the Creator of all the stuff on this earth. i am at total awe of the detail, the miracle of life on this earth. life does suck on the earth but it was not intended to be this way. i blame the enemy (satan), the counterfeiter (that is what i call #2 wanting to be #1). i thought i was stupid, lol. his time is short and that's why he is working so hard now to screw up so many people. since you know your problem you are on a good path to recovery. as far as the woman issue, well, avoid them as much as possible. just another pain in the.... and NO i am not a homo, that lbgtoenzlkdifnaknaq alphabet rainbow garbage is satanic. just look around and praise the Creator for this opportunity on this beautiful and wonderful earth. look on positive side, even though we are poor, we are rich to be aware and be able to seek the truth, this world is FULL of lies by satan, a liar and murderer from the beginning. as the days go by it gets better, search for the truth, you will find it.

Jema, thank you for all of this, What you said about seeing myself in Gods eyes is the nail on the hammer. Me seeing myself in others eyes is my trigger. I havent gone to church or been in the body of christ ever in my life although i'am a believer and God said that the work he starts in a man he will finish. I need to go to church and be in the body of christ. I will start doing this, I am only a man and I try to be double minded in my life becuase of pride, obviously it isnt working and I make a fool of myself. Thank you for your help sister. I love you and you helped me. God has spoken through you and I see things more clearly, I feel so much better and stable thanks to you, and Yahweh. thank you so very much. Also what you said about your mother is exactly how I feel. I need to stop trying to saticfy my family and do what god intended for me to do.

God bless you Marcusbeblessed.

and Amen Jema!

The Lord came to do for us what we can't do for ourselves.

He gives us his spirit that performs this. The ability to Love, forgive, longsuffering, Joy and peace.

We commit ourselves to him and his word. Faith and patience is a virtue that will come out of that.

God bless you.

I'm so very sorry that you are feeling this way . If you feel up to it , will you please tell us more about the things that are getting you down ? It can help just to say things out loud to another person , it's even better to talk to your God about how you are feeling , not that He doesn't already know because He does , but it can be very comforting to talk to Him openly and honestly about your troubles . Don't be afraid to say exactly how you feel , you cannot offend God if you are speaking honestly , you can't make Him angry by pouring your heart out to Him , He loves you and wants you to turn to Him in times of trouble . Please keep in touch with us on here , let us know why you are suffering right now . We can't physically be with you , God is with you though , always , and we will all try to help if we can .

Jema, the things that are getting me down are so many, I'm corrupted in so many way's. I hurt those who love me. I cant trust anyone. I have an anger and abandoment issues. the people that are closest to me I end up hurting. I blame my grandmother and parents for not raising me right, they raised me in anger and now I'm angry. I'm so used to things going wrong and against me that I destroy them before I'm the one hurt. it really isnt that big of a deal after everything is said and done. I want someone, a partner and I went so long without having one until a women came into my life and told me she loved me. Im stuck in my ways and I ruined the relationship. I feel as if I will always be like my grandmother. I feel like I have to put people down when Im down. I know Im not really like this but my fear of my grandmother stepping In and ruining things for me makes do things. I dont want to be attached to her anymore. I also dont want to be alone and homeless though. Its way to much in my life to explain, maybe I just need to go to church and find a church family again. instead of being alone and trying to fight these battles alone, I know that God can change me I havent studied or went to him or the body of christ in so long. I really dont know how to explain it. I cant love myself and I cant love others, I want to but I have been through so many struggles that I cant seem to change. I try so hard on my own, without god and I cant do it. The answer is right in front of me, I just am afraid of walking down that road alone. I'm afraid of not being understood or having compassion from my family, I'm isolated and alone nearly in the highest degree. No one answers my calls when I need someone to talk to. No one tries to understand me or my sorrows. Everyone I talk to finds a way to blame me for everything or brings up my past as if they want me to live in guilt and shame.

Dear Marcusbeblessed , thank you for opening up so much about yourself , it seems as if you are carrying many burdens . I wish I could tell you the answers to all your problems but I'm sure that I can't . I can however empathize . I had an unpleasant childhood , my parents divorced when i was a child and my mom didn't really want to be a mom so left me with family members a lot . When they did sometimes force her to have me she resented me and showed it without mercy . Even now , I'm in my fifties and she in her seventies , she gives me mixed messages and belittles me one minute and hugs me the next etc . I think maybe we expect to much from our parents , they are just ordinary human beings , therefore some are better at parenting than others . It helped me enormously to realise that none of her behaviour towards me was my fault , I'm the child , she's the parent . I stopped trying to please her many years ago , now I just try to please my Dear Heavenly Father . I trust Him and Him only , He doesn't play nasty head games , He actually loves me and shows me every day and He has promised that He will never abandon me , ever . These things are true for you also . My advice ? Try to stop seeing yourself through others , critical , spiteful eyes and see yourself through your God's eyes . His eyes are full of love and compassion towards you , He knows your pain and wants to heal you . Work on building your relationship with Him , it is the most important relationship you can have , forget all those wounds that the people of this world have inflicted upon you , move forward with your God , you exist because He wants you to , He has a plan and purpose for you , give yourself to Him , forgive yourself and those who have wounded you , rise above your pain and be who God wants you to be , His child , His creation that He loves and likes and who He is always with . Be determined to get closer to Him , put Him first and He will lift your head up above all the dross of this world

Thank you for these words, they set me free when my mother passed away this year end of March " maybe we expect too much from our parents , they are just ordinary human beings , therefore some are better at parenting than others "